A tribute to our own self....

Message: Once upon a time there was a rich King
who had
four wives.
He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her
with rich robes
and treated her to the finest of delicacies. He gave
her nothing but
the best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much and was
always showing her off
to neighboring kingdoms. However, he feared that
one day she would leave
him for another.

He also loved his 2nd wife. She was his confidant
and was always kind,
considerate and patient with him. Whenever the
King faced a problem,
he could confide in her, and she would help him
get through the difficult
times.

The King's 1st wife was a very loyal partner and
had made great contributions
in maintaining his wealth and kingdom. However,
he did not love the
first wife. Although she loved him deeply, he hardly
took notice of her!

One day, the King fell ill and he knew his time was
short. He thought of his
luxurious life and wondered, "I ! now have four
wives with me, but when I die,
I'll be all alone."Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I
have loved you the most,
endowed you with the finest clothing and showered
great care over you.
Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me
company?"

"No way!", replied the 4th wife, and she walked
away without another word.

Her answer cut like a sharp knife right into his
heart. The sad King then asked the 3rd wife,
"I have loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying,
will you follow me and keep me company?"

"No!", replied the 3rd wife. "Life is too good! When
you die, I'm going to remarry!"
His heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, "I have always turned
to you for help and you've always been
there for me. When I die, will you follow me and
keep me company?"

"I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!", replied
the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can
only send you to your grave." Her answer came
like a bolt of lightning, and the King was
devastated.

Then a voice called out: "I'll leave with you and
follow you no matter where you go."
The King looked up, and there was his first wife.
She was so skinny as she suffered
from malnutrition and neglect.

Greatly grieved, the King said, "I should have taken
much better care of you when I had the
chance!"

In truth, we all have 4 wives in our lives: Our 4th
wife is our body. No matter how much time and
effort we lavish in making it look good, it will leave
us when we die.
Our 3rd wife is our possessions, status and
wealth. When we die, it will all go to others.
Our 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter
how much they have been there for us,
the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.

And our 1st wife is our Soul. Often neglected in
pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the
world. However, our Soul is the only thing that will
follow us wherever we go.

Cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now, for it is
the only part of us that will follow us to the
throne of God and continue with us throughout
Eternity.

When the world pushes you to your knees .....
You're in the perfect position to pray.......










"I will come into your life to release you of your pain and suffering..."
~Analgestic~

Reliving the whatever attitude...

Sometimes, people live their life full of miseries, hopelessness and regrets. Either it falls into the category of doing the shitty job you hate or following "Rich Dad Poor Dad's" interpretation of -Mouse race- IN reality we live in a very much complicated world, no matter how hard you try, there will always be someone else better than you, the moment of being the best will never last forever, obstacles will be in your way to make sure you never sit your ass down and enjoy the sweet moments.. In my case, the general rule of thumb for this scenario would be strive hard in the thing you love to do and things will come your way.. Sadly, i somehow find that statement to be a complete bullshit lately, it doesnt even apply to people who has multiple interest like me. Almost everything you see with me are my area of interest, for example :



My childhood dreams of becoming a superb 500cc bike racer ended at Phagat Vinder's house when it died down and was left to rot there for two months which is still ok compared to being dead previously in my house for six months, hopes to revive this monster would have been long gone by now...




My dreams of becoming a genious computer programmer ended when i had streamyX and a very very powerfull laptop within the vicinity of my room, i succumbed to the needs of quriosity within my teenage years to learn more of the karma sutra practise "which sadly i still cant master"... Also, almost failed my C++, java, prolog, visual basic Damn!!




My dreams of having a happy soapy ending when i was dumped and jacked by the XX chromosome beings for so many times, the last straw for me was when my ex gf dumped me about one and a half year ago... I'm gald it happened, tought me how to live a suicidal live...




My dreams of becoming a hardcore guitarist ended when my band in Kuching broke up 3 and a half years ago, i stopped playing guitar since then until recently 4/5 months ago when approached by Akaash. My skills by now are totally gone case and uncomparable to my peers whom once played alongside me during our teengae years...




My dreams of becoming a basic pocket pc programmer ended when i decided to play too much game with this machine and thus turning it into a full fledged boring time gaming machine + recording of my musical ideas + misc duties(timetable, appoinments, assignments, mp3, file transfer from nk6820)


My dreams of becoming........... ARRGGhhH FUCK!!!



I know my dreams are fading away from me slowly, how i wish i could turn back time and changed it all. For now, my general of thumb would be "WHATEVER, come what may", hopefully that would answer to the pain aching behind the walls of smiles that i put up in front of everybody. Somehow i'm still thinking about how my life would turn out to become in the future, maybe someday i will have the answer to it all..


SO JUST TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK CAN I EXCEL IN YOU FUCKING OLD PRICK...???!!!












"Don't turn away, don't try to hide, don't close your eyes, don't turn out the lights.... "
~whisper - Evanescene~

Akash..

Damn, i can still remember how it all started.. Approached by pathma at Chelvis Food Shop, he asked me if know how to play guitar. His band is looking for a guitarist it seems to compete in some dingy crappy competition, well since i had nothing better to do at that time so i agreed to play for them. Pradeep was there too at that time, he too was approached by Pathma to play for his band. While scratching our ass in wonder, we concluded to meet later that night in the drummer aka Phagat VInder's house. Without knowing anything about the band at all, we just head off to vinder's house late as usual.. There we shook hands with a full fledged bhaai the first time, he showed us a riff, his half fake kondei and we progressed from there, creating the whole "Undecided" song in a night. Later, we figured out that we need a bassist and a singer so Vinder brought Song while Pradeep brought Reynu aka Belinda, it's only the later part that Justin came into the whole picture, it was then the picture was completed. We started serious jamming, song writting, making love to our instruments and much more in Vivace Studio..

If you noticed, our band consist of individuals from different circle of friends and life, we are all so different in character that if we were not to meet for the band practises we would barely meet each other at all for weeks on a stretch.. Sometimes i feel very lucky to be able to meet these group of amazing people at the very final years of my life in MMU, the amount of energy we had playing together was amazing, i really admire their strength, talent and songwritting skills. For those of you who doesnt know, Akaash's main talent is in it's songwritting department, at least that's what i feel..

Now, the murky water began to appear before a darkened sky, audition for a new singer will start soon in Vivace Studio, i will have headaches watching while people keep smoking like hell in the studio to look legit and adult... Hopefully, we will get through it all intact and remain as unique as a star in the sky.. No matter what the outcome is, one thing for sure is that Akaash will be in my memory forever..



Akaash Lineup
Guitarist : Jerry, Pradeep
Bassist : Song
Drummer : Phagat Vinder
Keyboardist : Justin
Percussionist : Pathma


In loving memories - akaash vocalist + Manipal Medical College Malacca Supporters

More photos from the past..

more from the photo versions....

It's time to expose the BBI ghost scam, damn caught it in a flash... Curtesy of kelvin prakash's help..


They say, you can tell a character through his shoe, guess there's a lot of difference between me and my brother..

Damn i almost got killed taking this shot, lean out quite far till my brother pulled me in...

Kadafi, members of p8 + props all posing before going kl..

My lean green screaming machin, can you just feel the amount testerone oOOZing?

Introducing JImi-H, my new roommate..

The condition of my ear is... Kesian, my dad almost faint...

Notice how tall the lighter is??? Hehe, special order from KL

Sparkle Studio!! Damn i hate giving my money to that guy...

Sleep well my babe, I might need your help again one day...

Fuckhole posing with my babe like it was his, damn i could sue you..

Guess what i found in my library??

I was in australia le, who say i've never been overseas?? *hiding*

And India too...

Recently...

Singer and guitarist broke off... Damn, life sucks period, cant play for merdeka night revolution!! -Porn- Ciggarettes and alcohol could never replace the feeling of being on stage in MMU some more.. Shitfuckdamncibaipukimaklanciaukonekbutohsaneyiutiuloumousohai... I was looking forward to spend my lifeless time in studio, how are we gonna move forward if we only could stall our time where we are??? Sounds stupid, damn right.. I am gonna leave you all with photo's from the past, no mood to blog liao...

This is what it's all about...

soundcheck time...

POsers all with gifts..

kamikaze style entering studio..

scary eh? shut da fuck up la jason... i know ur gonna comment on this one...

ah beng photo's of me, ehehheh... Taken at brother's hotel after Audiowarfare...

the flower used at Audiowarfare... "rest in peace"






















































































and somethng tak berkenaan

The girl in orange really looked a lot like my ex-gf.. damn, i'm having a little Dejavu again!!

a new beginning..

Due to uncanny provocations induced by the previous blog, i choose to relocate the entire site.. What's posted here from now on will only be updates on my band's progress and other musical related topics.. Thanks for visiting..