mid terms and assignments

New things to rant about myself lately :
- itchiness for a new phone has begun again, this time a sonyericsson babe
- i feel that i am like a train wreck in life, day after day of disasters this semester.
- insomnia (refer to previous post)
- rains of 7 project deadlines, and 7 midterms almost everyday continuously. Every single drop is deadly enough that if i get one hit, i'll be staying here for another lifetime.
- softwares learnt so far for this semester alone, c, dev c++, VB.NET, sql, apache, linux and the latest to add in, FORTRAN.
- our very inteligent lecturer asked us to learn how to program a compiler in linux and submit it within two weeks. I've just submitted the thing earlier so pardon my crappy writtings, my mind is extremely screwed at this very moment. Trust me, here's proof..

#include
#include
#include


int main ()
{
jerry_thinks();
printf("Jerry thinks 1+1 = %d", babies);
return 0;
}

jerry_thinks("1+1=3")
{
to_explain_this_theory();
if (man==real man && women==real girl) //real = authentic != aqua's or tomboys
{
int rlshp++ //relationship points grows plus everytime they meet new ppl
men+girl=baby(); //accidents in backseats cause babies
}
else ( man!=real man women!=real girl)
{
int rlshp-- //relationship points grows plus everytime they meet new ppl
men+men=more_men_screwed(); //accidents in backpants
girl+girl = more_women_screwed(); // no comments..
}
return baby;

}



Pardon me if you find my joke stupid or harmfull, i am not in pure state of mind to speak to anyone at this moment...

depressing summer

time : 10pm++
status : feeling extremely tired from a very long day at campus and will be trying to sleep at this hour to wake up early to prepare & revise notes for next day's class


time : 11.15pm++
status : tosing and turning around in bed, mind wandering to faraway lands of dragons and sometimes entertaining pleasurable fantasies


time : 1.15am++
status : still turning around in bed =.="


time : 3.15am+++++
status : feeling depressed, alone and very much awake with eyes wide open


time : 3.45am
status : decided to just stay awake as it is time to wake up anyway.


For your information, this happened almost every single night for the past 2 weeks, and i am not getting any sleep in the daytime either, i'll be feeling tired like hell before going to sleep and then after lazing around for a few hours without sleep i'll feel better physically with my eyes wide open.. Is this insomnia or stress..? Damnit, i'm going crazy real soon...!! This is really the beginning of a very depressing summer.

expectations

These past few days has been a wreck, i guess it's just my expectations of people which has begun to fail on me thus I AM A FAILURE FOR I DO NOT SEE THROUGH YOU WELL ENOUGH TO PUT MY EXPECTATIONS SO HIGH UPON YOU. Thank you for destroying everything i've build and work so hard to achieve.

quotes of the day

I just notice my hot tutor winks at me at the mid term exam last night, cool..!! hehe, in case you are wondering which tutor, she's the one i mention a few weeks earlier being harsh towards me in class, and if im not mistaken, she could be single *wonders and ponders in blankness to the sky....*

I am now sick, yes fever and all, missing my classes with valid reason and yes i should be reoccupating instead of blogging, but who cares, my hands move on their own and now you are reading this eh, hahha...

Been wondering lately where my dreams will take me to, it's kinda hard trying to balance my time between friends, studies and music, it's not an easy task taking 8 subjects including FYP for one semester and yet i am subject to criticism from a few pathetic assholes who doesnt seem to understand the fact that taking 8 subjects is totally different from taking just 3 or 4 subjects even for a long semester. However, a big thank you goes to all of you who understands and offers moral support along the way, i trully appreciate that, i guess there's no need of formality for introduction here on who they are, you know who you are..!!

Something i wish to note for you music lovers out there, my youtube account has been suspended due to some violation of some privacy shite, so in contrast to their action, i am launching an anti-youtube campaign for now, no idea how long can i keep this up though. I am a sucker for good inventions.


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My luck in love wise has not improved at all, i met a beautiful angel one day while i was minding my own business in a cafe in Emerald Park, out of nowhere she came and with such a wide choice of empty place to sit, she chose to sit behind me watching my arse, "what's with my backside that attracts people's attention..??" Anyway, i didnt summon enough courage to talk to her that time and walk away empty minded like a limping frog. In my heart i swear i was cursing the gods for not givng me naturally born good looks like Jay Chou or Lee Hom but oh well i might as well be thankful for what i've been given, i walked to my class to eternally never to see her again for good. Maybe it's for the best this way... I know, im hopeless in love..

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"I am a dreamer, i like to dream big. But sometimes, shit happens"
(analgestic, jerry ngu, http://analgestic.blogspot.com 14 March 2007)